Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in cogitoergosome's LiveJournal:

Saturday, October 15th, 2005
5:58 pm	My random drunk run on thoughts The world lives breathes collapses in upon it self knowing only that it will continue to some day far away when it all comes crashing down. Death, breathe, never dwell on your problems they become greater and stronger untill they consume you. Never carry a torch to long it will burn you, never like another without telling them you appreciate them it will be your last mistake. I am a god a spirit scream so I can hear it your alive, breathe, love breathe, love like you never been hurt. Introspective you are your own detective, I know the purpose of life is wellbeing I know this from all the things I have seen. I love you but don't mistake this love for a that special feeling we all hold dear like the beating of your heart you hear so clear. I am a man just a man fallible and mortal dieing with every breath inside I am dieing my cells are being destroyed by freeeadicals my DNA my stem cells so precious, I am mortal I shall not dwell just live well, die free. Strangers in a life untill we all become ripe with livid self inflicted wounds that won't heal untill we are happy with our selfs but that never happens becuase we are always after the next best thing. What is that you or me what are we? The meaning of life the big question, the answer is 42 forty two hahahahahaha go fuck your self, what? can't! take yoga then you can. (Comment on this)
Thursday, October 6th, 2005
8:50 pm	This is my Life...... I am a human being carbon based, a product of random mutated gene,s resulting from the copulation of two individuals. I am combosed of gene's who's purpose is to produce chemicals that create certain desires in me, my brain is made from these gene's, however the uniqueness of the human brain is it's ability to create neuro pathways from expearince thus making me also a product of enviromental and genetic makeup. The human brain maximises my survival as an individual and creates stratagies in which to achive my desires which are a result of my gene's, my morals are only to preserve social unity and thus increase my chance of survival within the human group known as society. My choice's feel good becuase they appeal to my desires which I have already pointed out are the result of the gene's I was born with, my brain responds to experince in order to better adapt my self to enviromental change and create stratagies in which to maximise my survivial. Survivial is the primal desire everything else follows, desire to be in a social group in order to attain a sense of security in numbers, and a conducive enviroment for finding a perspective mate and thus secure survivial of said gene's. I am a dancing fool responding to the tugs of strings we commonly call intuition, gut feelings, love, I have no choice and neither do you, choice is illusion we are all just following those old and ancient intincts, we just cloud them with non sense in order to deny what we have all been running from, there is no free will. The only differince between us and the cave man is we have nicer clothes and better house's. I am dertermined not by mystical powers or other such comforting lies but by gene's which give me desires and a brain to help me maximise them, some desires are percieved as good some bad but they are there, they take us down the roads that either lead to better things in life or the bottom of the barrel it's a bilogical determinism and like nature it is neither kind nor cruel simply indiferent, you will be dumb, or depressed, or a serial killer, the truth is there is no denying our true nature. You obey your intincts even as you shake your head at this paragraph, dance little ponochio dance. I am no longer blindly following a path, my eye's are wide open now and I accept each step as one in which there is no such lie as choice involved, only a biological determination to fufill those desires most of us seek. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
2:50 pm	Sick and sad I wonder to what cause is that of depression, what purpose can it solve and can pain really be absolved through tears. What is this thing called depression for some it's a chemical imbalance that renders the afflicted with a complete lack of energy and of course causes the person to be sad. I of course know of this but I am really wondering what is the purpose of being sad, I know that anger and fear are protective in nature they serve a purpose; survival but what purpose does tears and sadness have and why it is necasary. Is it perhaps a vent for frustrations that other wise could not be vented through anger and fear,like getting dumped by a girl or being rejected in some manor, I can't see how it would help, people generally don't like befriending or being around sad depressed people, unless it's out of pity or a genuine desire to help them. Even so people with lot's of friends and success are generaly well liked due to there extroverted nature and jubulent disposition. I leave this unresolved with an unknown quote, "We gather strength from sadness and from pain Each time we die we learn to live again". (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 17th, 2005
10:38 am	My life in transition I am a waking disaster, a master of my own fate, the puppet that pulls it's own strings. I can't help but stare into those amazing eye's and your lips and wonder if I'll ever have a part of them. I wish I could just tell you how I feel but alas I cannot to many friendships would be affected and to many people would suffer if things fell through. I am just to terrible about being friends with a girl after I break up with her and sometimes preserving a friendship is sometimes more important then creating a relationship. Life is s song a layerd and intense about a few decades long. Let my conciounce and my heart be my guides through all the days of my life. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
2:10 am	Nothing I have just moved and have now found that my once sparkling social life has now dwindled, not that it truly sparkled but it was a comfort. I have emptied the glass of frindship and sought to fill it again with some new life. I am excited that I moved and I look forward to my future journeys especially Quebec and New York state. I sit and wonder where this road will take me always remembering of course we our all authors of our own destinys, I beleive it was the german philosopher nitzche that said that of course i am to puntualy lazy to frame the saying in quotation marks or to even spell his name properly. Silence and thoughts such beautiful companions in the night they make love together and concieve wisdom and imagaination. I wish i could hold somone right now and kiss them and feel there breath on my skin and taste there tongue on mine. I am not saying this from a lonely place but from a comfort standpoint it feels really nice sometimes, you know life is in the details. "you are just a man", the slave said to the roman general Pompey during one of his many victory celebrations in rome. I am indeed just a man. (Comment on this)